This would be us today, or more specifically D.
She bounded into our room this morning looking very happy and smiley and then asked what day it was.
On being told it was Monday, she curled herself into a ball and started crying. She didn’t want to go back to school, she didn’t want to see one particular classmate, she didn’t want to leave me.
This from a child who’d spent the majority of the half-term week missing school. Just once, just for one day (aside from her birthday) I’d like D to have an anxiety-free one, a day where she’s happy and laughing all day. There must be so much anxiety and emotion whirring around, constantly waiting to be triggered.
So, it was a distraction-filled school run, we hunted for cats, birds, flowers, anything to take her mind off our destination.
But then, the switch flicked over. She saw the happy smiling face of her teacher – who has just been the BEST teacher she’s had at her SN school – and my girl was a smiling, flapping, bouncy D, happy to receive a hug from a classmate (no, not that one!) and go in to start her day.
And it was a happy girl (to start with) that I collected. Her mood changed once we’d met up with T – who hadn’t had the best day, he’d been pushed over by another child, sounded like a skirmish for a queue – and, unusually for T, he told me about it as soon as we met him.
Since then, they’ve both been quite volatile with each other, calm one minute and then fiery the next.
But what’s bought them together tonight? That would be Minecraft, their two brown-haired heads together on the sofa, taking suggestions from each other on their “worlds” contained within the app.
I look at them both, giggling away, and feel a bit saddened that it can’t always be like this, but that’s life, that’s parenting autistic children and, even though I’m shattered, I wouldn’t change them.
Hope everyone’s had a good day, comments/RTs/shares welcomed, thanks for reading Jx 😘