Today’s diary post will be at the end of the blog.
I felt like I needed to revisit the post below today, it reminds me just how far D has come, with the right support, in the right setting.
A post that I wrote last April, enjoy:
“Here comes the sun”… and I don’t mean the paper
This post will make you smile – promise. It’s a positive post, a “wow, I never ever thought I’d see this” moment.
If you’ve read my previous post “D and mainstream did not mix”, you will know that D was not able at all to go into the main hall at school due to her anxieties. I never saw her participate in an assembly or school play, it was too much for her. We’d have the costume, practice at home and then on the day, anxieties took over. She was word perfect on all the songs at home!
Anyway…enough doom and gloom. D has been at her SN school for just over two years – we moved her as soon as we could after the statement came through – and, on the whole is very happy there.
Every May/June, D’s SN school has a “Proms Week” and each class performs for the school, the parents are invited to the relevant performances too. The first year I attended there were some teenagers showcasing their drumming skills. You could tell how anxious some of them were and they were coaxed onto the stage, but once the music started they were “in the zone” and they performed. Once they had finished, they almost ran off the stage with relief. I had nothing but admiration for the way they overcame their fears and performed in front of a hall full of people – a task that would be nerve-racking for anyone, let’s be honest!
D and her class sang “Here comes the Sun” – in the hall, a packed school hall.
The moment when D stood up and sang is up there in terms of pride with when she first wrote her name and read from a book. Never to be forgotten. I watched and taped it through a mixture of smiles and tears of happiness.
To see my D go from a frightened anxiety-ridden child to singing in front of people was amazing. Of course, I know that it’s familiar surroundings and a lot of coaxing and externally we have many many anxieties and issues to overcome but… I was so proud of her whole class.
Incidentally “Here comes the Sun” is one of her favourite songs, we must have watched it ten times in a row on YouTube this morning!”
The “worry bag” worked its wonders again this morning, until we got to school. D could see a member of her class waving a massively long (about 4 foot) ruler around and it made her very reluctant to go in, she had to be coaxed in by a TA. I left, hoping she’d have a good day.
Unfortunately she didn’t. She didn’t feel like giving out any bear hugs, in fact she looked so low and miserable I had to administer some big cuddles. From what she said on the way home, one child was elbowing another and yet another received time-out in the courtyard. What a day, poor pupils and staff!
D seemed happier once she’d unburdened herself about her day and we had a s l o w journey to pick up T, D concentrating on gathering as many daisies as possible, bless her!
T didn’t have an especially good day either, he’s briefly mentioned it but hadn’t been keen to elaborate, so it’s been mixed at home.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better for both.
One thing I was entrusted with today was D’s little suitcase, one of her calming tools. She chose not to take it to school today, part of me wishes she had.
It’s such a tiny little case, full of plastic rings, homemade rings, pictures she’s made and bound like treasure maps and shiny things! All little things for her to calm and regulate herself with.
Anyway…shameless plug over!
I hope everyone’s had a good day, comments/RTs/shares as ever welcomed, thanks for reading Jx 😘